Sunday, March 01, 2009

Middle of Nowhere

At times, I'd always think I did many thing to people because I care for them. Because I love them.

I'd see them suffer now than they suffer later. Because I don't want them to suffer the way I did. I do not want them to take the same route I take so that they ended up like me. Bitter and sour like me.

But I guess they just did not see it.

Even when I still love them like the way I always did, I do not think that they will take me as the way I am.

I just want the best for you.

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, kerana terbukanya hijab yang selama ini mengurung aku di dalam kekeliruan. Alhamdulillah Ya Rahman, kerana Engkau masih menyayangi aku. Alhamdulillah Ya Rahim, kerana hari ini panahan petir yang keras menyambar perasaan aku.

Dan aku panjatkan segala doa dan hajat aku kepada Kau Ya Allah, berikanlah nikmat kesabaran aku dan berkat doa aku kepada orang-orang yang aku sayang. Anjurkanlah segala kesenangan aku dan kegembiraan aku kepada mereka, dan tawakkallah aku kepada-Mu Ya Rabb, agar mereka-mereka ini sentiasa berada di dalam jagaan-Mu yang satu.

Sujud sembah aku kepada-Mu Ya Malik.

Ambillah aku.
Ambillah aku.
Ambillah aku.

"Nurse, 50mg heroine, IV, stat."

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